Father & Son (Happy 60th Birthday Al!)

3 07 2015

Today is my husband’s 60th birthday. He is King Salmon fishing. With our son. Captaining our salmon troller, the Saint Jude.

When our son was young, he also went commercial fishing with his dad. Usually with a deckhand on board, though his first King Salmon trip was off of the “prairie” in Washington state when he was 7-years-old. Just he and his dad were on that trip too. Freezing King Salmon on board.

Here is a photo when our son was younger fishing off of the California coast.

My husband and son with an ocean-caught King Salmon aboard the Saint Jude. Fishing Season 2013.

My husband and son with an ocean-caught King Salmon aboard the Saint Jude. Fishing Season 2013.

Our boy is the sole crewman for this current trip

He is old enough, now, to land Kings. It may be the first trip he is paid a percentage of the catch, depending on how he does cleaning the fish and practicing landing them.

We are currently on a 50 fish King Salmon quota here in Washington State, for this trip. The dock price for iced fish is low as the Alaska troll King Salmon season started on July 1st. There will be plentiful fish on the fresh market. Requiring extra strategies to get the best price for the premium grade of fish that our  boat delivers.

So the on board blast freezer is on, and the fish will be processed for our direct markets, local customers. Filling a niche market in the Winter months.

(Happy Birthday Al! I hope the fish are biting, wherever you are!)

I suspect there is nowhere in the world my husband would rather be right now. He has put in over 40 consecutive fishing seasons as a King Salmon troller!

Our son, too, likes fishing.

When he found out he would be getting to go out on the next King Salmon trip, now that school is out for summer break, our boy packed his XtraTuff boots and changed into fishing clothes in the wink of an eye.

He put on long pants and a gray knit watch cap even though the weather outside was hot for our marine climate here at home in Sequim, WA.

We had to get him to change back into shorts. Let him know that the boat was in a port further down the coast from where we live.
That evening, he would take the bus with his dad, to where the boat was moored in Westport, WA.

Capt. Al & son boarding a bus.

Capt. Al & son boarding a bus.

Our boy is getting tall. From the back, he looks a lot like his dad. When he has his brown XtraTuff boots on, our son, is nearly a dead ringer for Al when he was younger.

To Allan: Enjoy. Every. Single. Minute.

Soon, our son will be a man.  Just as our daughter is now a young woman. And then, it will be just you and I growing old together … with our memories.

 





The Beauty of Mother’s Day

10 05 2015

Waking up this morning was calm. I am in a house, not on a commercial fishing boat out on the sea.

There was a remnant of a dream about alignment.

Oh, yes, mental note, remember to have the wheels on the mini-van rotated to avoid an alignment issue.

Mother’s Day!

The sun is shining, birds are chirping, and there are feathers all over my bedroom.

Still.

A large decorative pillow came loose at a seam, maybe a week ago now, and somehow the four cats discovered this one afternoon while I was preoccupied somewhere else.

Feathers everywhere. Big mess, happy cats.

In years past, this would have made me cranky. Another mess to clean up. These days, it puts a smile on my face.

Reminding me of the joys of home and pet ownership. The trappings of domestic life.

Messes, in all their glory, are part of being a mom!

Feather clean-up can never come before coffee. Especially on Mother’s Day!

The house is quiet, kids are sleeping after a full day of Sequim Irrigation Festival activities yesterday.

My son spent most of yesterday with his grandmother, my mother.

My husband spent the day before Mother’s Day fishing off of the West Coast. I spent the day in Poulsbo at Viking House with other mothers at play, painting pictures.

My daughter spent the day with friends.

Last night, I watched two old episodes of “House”, had a bit of Ben and Jerry’s Half-Baked ice cream and waited a while for my daughter to come home.

My beautiful girl had tidied the kitchen and family room, my mother had said, while I was away enjoying a day in Poulsbo with friends.

She does that. My daughter. She cares about others.

I went to bed hoping my girl was having a wonderful evening with her friends. Her birth made me a mother eighteen years ago.

Leaving the feather mess behind in the master bedroom this morning, moving past sleeping son and daughter, I made my way downstairs in my blue unicorn pajama pants and one of my husband’s white T-shirts.

The  little gray tabby looks up sleepily from a curled up position in the family room. I am her person.

On the kitchen counter was this:

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A Mother’s Day gift from my daughter

I read the card that my daughter had made. The words, from her heart, made me cry.

Heading back upstairs, I found her curled up in bed. She smiled, half-asleep. As I tucked the aqua flannel top sheet around  her shoulders, I asked my girl if she wanted Wilbur, her cat. A nod for an answer.

Back downstairs, outside on the lid of the hot tub, is the resting form of an orange tabby. He gets scooped up in my arms and delivered to my daughter’s bedroom. Wilbur is delighted!

I peak in my son’s room and he is still sleeping. The black and white elderly tuxedo cat, Jackie, is resting on his sleeping form.

I quietly head back downstairs to make coffee.

A text message comes in from my husband wishing me Happy Mother’s  Day. 

My husband  is on the ocean, commercial fishing for King Salmon. It is a comfort to know he is  safe.

The cat which prefers my husband’s company, the long-haired orange tabby named Mango (Wilbur’s brother) is still out in the fields hunting. He misses my husband. I will brush him and comfort him this evening.

I feel very honored to be a mother.

To embrace the trappings of domesticity on land.

It has been a contrast from a lot of my life commercial fishing on the sea and someday I expect to be back on the ocean.

What I also know to be true is that I would not give up a single moment of my life being a mom. Cats, feathers and all.

My two beautiful children are the greatest gift that I have ever known!





The Importance of Competency (on and off a boat)

21 04 2015

My husband left on Easter Day this Spring. For the fishing grounds.

Life at home is messy. It always gets messy. One parent, two kids (albeit that one of the kids is now an adult), four cats and a dog.

The cats are spending much more time outdoors now. No one here is crazy about cleaning the cat litter boxes. My husband cleaned them during the off-season, for which the rest of the family is very, very grateful.

For the record, my husband is not crazy about cleaning cat litter boxes out, either.

Our elderly cat, often misses the box these days, hitting the floor. It is a full-time job making sure the cat potty things are sanitary enough for her increasingly sensitive nose.

Cats sunning on the south-facing cedar deck. Getting fresh air. Also, simultaneously saving their humans time and energy spent on cleaning cat litter boxes. Makes me smile.

The flies have shown up.

That happens when the garbage does not get removed from the utility room soon enough, and it starts to get warm as the calendar approaches Summer.

My husband mostly takes care of the garbage, too, during the off-season. For which the entire family is very, very grateful.

Then there is the stack of mail in the passenger seat of the mini-van.

Yep. You guessed it. My husband takes care of the mail, well, he helps take care of the mail. When he is home during the off-season.

Seasonal single-parenting.

It is kind of a rush.

Sights, sounds and smells occur that don’t usually exist in our fairly conventional home life. The one we lead during the off-season, when my husband is home.

The family is very grateful that a mouse which one of the cats brought inside the other day, did not hide behind a piece of heavy furniture.

That happened one year when my husband was away fishing. An abandoned mouse.

The putrid, dead mouse smell became stronger by the day. It was the middle of summer. The house temperature reached above the 80’s. Virtually stewing the mouse in its own juices.

Our family, eventually, had to eat on the other side of the house. We had NO IDEA where the mouse had run to. Eventually, the smell was so bad that we were able to track it behind a filing cabinet. The mouse was found flat, decomposing.

That was then, this is now.

The laundry. Yay, Is clean! Just not exactly put away. Each person is responsible for doing that themselves.

On paper anyway.

The truth is, we are all in a new routine. We do this twice a year. Transitioning. Husband/Dad gone, Husband/Dad home.

It will take a while to smooth into the new routine.

Just as it will take a while for our fishing boat, the Saint Jude, to get into a rhythm with our new crewman. There will be a learning curve.

As the last few flies buzz behind my head (the rest have been mercilessly smashed by a fly swatter), I contemplate this life.

Now I am off to pick up school kids, my son and his buddy.

Yep. You guessed it. My husband does that too, most of the time. During the off-season! Picks up the kid, the one not yet old enough to drive.

Break

I just got back from the grocery store. Got in the store, almost. Noticed I had left a grocery list in the mini-van. Walked back to the mini-van and noticed my clothes were much too warm for heat of the day.

Also, noticed an oil spot running out from under the mini-van. I quickly scanned my mental mini-van diagnostic skills. I decided to move the mini-van to a different parking spot. One without oil puddles.

Somewhat anxiously, I did the grocery shopping. Coincidentally, the man behind me in the check-out line said to no one in particular, “Men actually do some things”. I think he meant grocery shopping.

I had an audience, then, and took the opportunity

“My husband is away commercial fishing”, I said.

“I have been noticing for the past couple of  weeks just how much he did around the house when he was home”.

I talked about the cat litter box issue until I noticed that random strangers in line started to look uncomfortable.

Groceries bagged and paid for, I pushed the grocery cart back to the mini-van. A quick glance under the vehicle reassured me, somewhat, that the mini-van was not the cause of the oil leak earlier.

Traditionally, my husband is in charge of the oil changes in our vehicles. Lately though, I have been.

It is important to be able to know how to do many things. Cooking, grocery shopping, oil changes, laundry, banking, … life skills.

Men and women can both be competent in these areas. On dry land.

Just as men and women can both be competent in many areas on a boat. If they choose to be.

In my earlier years, I spent a lot of time commercial fishing. It is very physically demanding at times, that particular career choice. No more, though, and no less than “seasonally single-parenting” children and running a household at home.

It is just a different kind of work.

Circa 1990. Back during  the 24-hour long-line halibut openers in SE Alaska. My husband and I became adept at long-liner openers - without a crew.  Just he and I landed this 300 + lb halibut, along with the rest of the fish on that opener. I am 24-years-old in this photo.

Circa 1990. Back during the 24-hour long-line halibut openers in SE Alaska. My husband and I became adept at participating in long-line openers – without a crew. Just he and I landed this 300 + lb halibut, along with the rest of the fish on that opener. I am 24-years-old in this photo. Yakutat, Alaska. Photo credit – Allan Richardson

Did the fish photo grab your attention?

Yeah, it is a big fish. Care to guess how large gonads are in a halibut that size? Think coconut. Each one. You’ll be in the ball park.

That big halibut is definitely cool, way cooler than talking about running households and cleaning cat boxes.

So it is when I contemplate my life.

The coolest thing I have ever done is to raise kids. It is also cool to be a commercial fisherman. Both jobs are tough!

This year, one or both of our kids may be aboard the Saint Jude. Commercially fishing.

I expect other fishermen to cut my husband some slack when he has the kids on the boat. They may or may not. It is a competitive industry.

He will neither be the greatest dad, when the kids are on the boat, nor will he be the greatest commercial fisherman. Both jobs require an intense amount of work and focus.

The best a fishing boat captain/dad can do is to try and  find a good balance.

It is the very same for me as a mother.

Finding a balance. Instilling a work ethic in our kids. Staying focused on commercial fishing. Just like any other set of parents in  any other career field.

Sometimes my  life is routine, rather boring.

Sometimes big fish bite!

Finding the balance is where it is at.

Being a commercial fishing family – it’s cool!

 

You can learn more about our fishing family business at http://www.freshfrozenfish.net

 

 

 

 

 

 





Picture Me Trollin’ (Fish On, Yo)

7 04 2015

Trying to convey to others what it is to be a commercial fisherman, or even more difficult, to be a commercial fishing family – is near impossible.

Unless they are in the business themselves.

It requires patience and a certain amount of forgiveness.

Only other commercial fishermen really want to talk about fishing. A lot.

Comparisons can be made. It is somewhat like being a military family (without the fear that mom or dad is going to war). Yet, distinctly different.

Fishermen like to pride themselves on being independent.

For those raised within the fishing fleet, it is either a source of great conflict or great surrender.

Conflict. Being on land is a conflict. For those born to the sea.

(Vice versa for members of a fishing family that are extroverts and have trouble chillin’ at sea).

My best buddies in the fleet worried about me, when they knew I’d be spending time on land raising kids. The image needed to be gentled up. Considerably.

Everyone reinvents themselves throughout life.

Becoming a responsible parent, putting my commercial fishing identity on the back burner for years, was necessary.

I found it much harder, being at home raising the kids while my husband was at sea, than living and fishing on a boat for months at a time.

At a kid’s birthday party, just the other day, a mother asked me if I’d be bothered if she and some of the other parents cussed, not in front of the kids. Like mild-mannered Clark Kent, I just smiled, and reassured her I’d be okay with it.

I said I was a commercial fisherman (as if that would explain everything). Told her we try not to cuss in front of the kids at home or on the boat. Told her I had to shape up my language, a lot, when I became a mother.

As a commercial fisherman, cussing just seems to be a part of the way of life. Depending on the company. (Note: My mother fished for years and did not appreciate cussing. Much). It takes a conscientious effort to repress the impulse to talk in a blue streak. Especially when the conversation turns to fishing. Good days on the ocean. A great fishing trip!

It is the independence that draws people to commercial fishing. The ocean is the last wild frontier here on earth.

The very strain that allows me to be a fishing partner with my husband, without coding partners or crewmen, is not very mild-mannered. The same holds true for my husband. Imagine two fiercely independent souls being married!

We both have to work hard, very hard, at being flexible.

To not just give in to the ease of a commercial fisherman identity. Or lifestyle.

I like knowing I can do other things too. I don’t  like the notion of being dependent on any one identity, lifestyle, or occupational choice. I like the freedom of being able to reinvent myself.

Truth be told, though, I was born to fish. Raised within the fleet, I learned to compete with the fleet.

Fishing is in the blood.

So, when the youngest child is out of earshot, at home, this is the tune that gets cranked up. Don’t listen to it if cussing bothers you.

https://soundcloud.com/aknatural/picture-me-trollin

It’s where I plan to be this summer. On the back end of a boat (if not exactly a wood double-ender).

Trolling!

And yeah, if you listened to the words of the song, I’ve caught one. A “65 pounder, shiny as chrome”. We trollers live to catch those big Kings.

Commercial fishermen.

We live to fish. And fish to live.

 

 

 

 

 





The F/V Saint Jude And Her Fishing Family (a symbiotic relationship)

1 04 2015

The boat is nearly ready. For the new fishing season.

The Saint Jude is the basis of our livelihood.

She is a member of the family.

As is the case with fishing boats and their fishing families everywhere.

Today a brand new generator is being installed in the engine room of the Saint Jude. Rewinding the old generator did not work. For reasons yet undetermined.

Tomorrow the season starts where we want to be fishing our boat.
For now, though, the Saint Jude is in port close to home. It is blowing Westerly gale in the Strait of Juan de Fuca. It is small craft on the coast.

Fishing is like that. Getting off course happens. A generator, freshly rewound, fails to work properly.

Decisions need to be made.

Go fishing with the boat as it is. Using a hand pump for any accumulated ice melt in the hold?

Or get a new generator installed before the start of the season?

We need the generator to power the on-board blast freezer. Which allows us to process premium quality salmon and produce sashimi grade albacore on board. Many of which will be direct marketed to our customers.

(To learn more about our fishing family business, please feel free to check out our web-site: http://www.freshfrozenfish.net )

Fishermen tend to get impatient. Their fishing/business partner wives, not so much.

We want to have the family back together safely at the end of the season.

An experienced fisherman’s wife looks at the big picture. Not the day to day fishing. Not the trip to trip fishing. Not even the season to season fishing.

An experienced fisherman’s wife looks at the occupation of being a commercial fishing family in terms of survival.

Decade to decade.

It is a challenge. A monetary challenge. A lifestyle challenge. An exercise in patience.

A commercial fisherman is called to the sea.

It is important to understand this in relating to commercial fishermen.

When the boat is ready, the fisherman’s wife knows it often before the fisherman. For it is the boat that will care for her husband while she is on shore caring for children still attending school.

The boat is expensive. Demanding.

A fisherman’s wife accepts this. Jewels and exotic vacations are less important than new equipment for the boat.

It is not a sacrifice, being a fisherman’s wife, for the pay-off is great.

Fishermen’s wives and fishing families eat the finest seafood available!

There is satisfaction, also, in pursuing an occupation that one is born to.

When the boat is ready for the season, everyone in the family will feel it.

We will know when the wind backs off.

Until then, we are test driving four wheel drive pick-up trucks to replace the old fish truck we recently lost to an engine fire. We are enjoying Spring Break with the kids out of school, exploring museums, enjoying a little leisure time as a family.

Perhaps the Saint Jude knew we needed this.

F/V Saint Jude in Port Angeles Harbor.

F/V Saint Jude in Port Angeles Harbor.

In a small fishing family operation, a fisherman’s wife pays attention to the boat as much as the fisherman does. The livelihood of her family depends on this.

The Saint Jude is part of our family. I will do everything in my power to take care of her so she can help to take care of our family safely!





The Things That Really Matter

24 03 2015

A decidedly scary thing happened last Friday. My husband was on his way to work on the Saint Jude, our family fishing boat, in Port Angeles.

Our home phone rang, and I skipped over to answer it expecting to hear that he had got the generator on the boat running.

Something had gone wrong. In somewhat halting words, my husband said that the truck had caught fire but that he was okay.

The Sequim Fire Department putting out the fire that started under the hood of our classic 1972 Ford F-250. No one was hurt and the fire was put out safely!

The Sequim Fire Department putting out the fire that started under the hood of our classic 1972 Ford F-250. No one was hurt and the fire was put out safely!

How grateful we are, that no one was hurt!

My husband had noticed the fire, after returning an item in a store. The truck was off the road and parked away from any crowd of people. A passing good Samaritan had called the Sequim Fire Department and two fire trucks showed up, sirens blaring. Tools were needed to cut and pry open the hood so the fire could be completely extinguished.

A neighbor had been shopping at the store and had given my husband  a ride home. AAA towed the injured truck to a nearby auto repair shop.

Within a couple of hours, it was time to pick up our pre-teen son from school. We considered how to break the news to him. We decided to let him know we would be getting a newer truck. As much as my husband and I had come to appreciate our classic Ford truck, that we used for our fishing business, it was our son that expressed the passion that many people have for collector vehicles. He loved that truck!

He and I had driven by the truck many times, when it sat in a row of  cars for sale. It had a presence about it. Most of one Spring we drove by it every day during school drop-off and pick-up.  It was, overlooking Highway 101, patiently waiting for new owners.

One day, later into summer, my son and I pulled into that parking lot. Kicked at the tires of all the vehicles lined up in that little row. Came back to the truck.

It was old. No airbags. No power mirrors, doors, or locks. Old.

Over 40 years old.

In 1972, when the truck was new, my husband had barely started his commercial fishing career, and I was in second grade. About the same age as my son when he and I  took a first, serious look at the truck.

The truck, as it turned out, was on consignment. The person consigning the Grabber Blue  Ford, gave me a spec sheet. Balanced 390 engine. Thorley headers. The list went on.

With the spec sheet tightly grasped in my boy’s fist, after our visit, my son and I drove home in the slightly battered 2001 Honda Odyssey mini-van. In my mind, the greige-colored mini-van is about the least cool vehicle on the street and, admittedly, ever so practical.

In the Fall, near the end of that fishing season, my husband came home.  He’d been commercially fishing King Salmon, mostly, off of the coast of Oregon. We were in financial recovery from the recession, unprecedented fishing closures in Washington, Oregon, and California and from a family member having dealt with a serious illness.

Spending money, even contemplating spending money, required very careful calculation.

We decided we needed a truck for our fishing business. Renting U-hauls was getting expensive. The yard work was getting  way behind. Junk was accumulating in the garage.

And that 1972 Grabber Blue Ford F-250 truck was pulling at our heart-strings. It fit our needs.  And our budget.

We drove it to my Uncle Dave’s house. He was a retired master mechanic. It was the second truck we had brought to him. With the 1972, he just said not to worry too much about gas mileage. He told us not to put a locking gas cap on it because it would just get broken into. He suggested a theft alarm instead.

(My Uncle Dave passed away a couple of months ago. We miss him very much).

Bolstered by my Uncle Dave’s suggestion, we wrote a check out for the 1972 Ford F-250 truck. Paying for it in full. The previous owner had sold it to us for $4,500.

I drove it out of the parking lot toward home. Gave it a little throttle as I prepared to merge into traffic on Highway 101. Gravel spun out from under the back tires. Back at home, my husband laughed good-naturedly. The 390 had serious vroom.

The truck was a  beast!

Not many weeks later, as the leaves were turning yellow and orange, my husband and I drove out along the Dungeness River toward Nash’s new Farm Store in Dungeness while in that truck. By happenstance, it was during the opening celebration. We spoke briefly with Huber Nash, then with his wife Patty McManus. They both  told us to call their marketing manager, Mary. We drove off with folks waving at us, and we at them, as we went  by the front doors. The re-built, balanced, 390 giving a throaty, low rumble.

That 1972 Ford F-250 is a classic in every way.

It fit right into Farmer’s Markets, where we sell our fish, and on the back roads meandering through the rural farm land of Sequim.  It packed kayaks to Sequim Bay. With the alarm armed, it patiently waited in marina parking lots while the skipper of the Saint Jude, my husband, was working off-shore catching albacore and salmon. The truck waiting to get him home to see his family again.

In photos, the truck looks straight and true parked next to our fishing boat, the Saint Jude, in the Port Angeles Boatyard during Spring boat work. With a freshly cut Christmas tree in the bed, it made a a great back-drop for our red-headed family during impromptu holiday photo sessions.

That truck would be our go to vehicle for delivering frozen albacore and picking it up, hand-packed, from artisanal canneries. It would pack frozen salmon back to the Olympic Peninsula for our local customers. It would also help us deliver fish to Nash’s and other local grocery stores.

It was a work horse.

Tenderly, too, that truck would wait patiently in the school parking lot for our son. With a chocolate lab on the bench seat and his daddy at the wheel, home from fishing on the coast, that truck represented the image of our family healing.

It was cool, it was real, it was authentic.

That truck was also inexpensive to insure. No renewal tabs are needed for a collector vehicle. Comprehensive insurance on an older work truck did not fit our budget well. So we just carried liability.

Our fish truck, like our boat, is a tool.

An object.

These days, our fish truck is also part of the face of our fishing family business.

The safety of our family is a priority. It is time for us to make a change.

Our young son cried when he learned about the truck fire. His grandmother, visiting us at our home at the time,  comforted him. We took he and his older sister out to dinner and bought him an old-fashioned milkshake  before he would meet up with his troop for his first Boy Scout camp-out since he had crossed over from being a Cub Scout earlier this year.

For the week-end, he would be  amongst friends. That was the important part.

My husband and I left Friday evening for a planned business trip to Seattle. To pick up our life raft for the Saint Jude. To walk the loop in the Arboretum while the cherry trees were still blossoming. To dine at Lark restaurant and congratulate Chef Sundstrom on all of his current success including being a James Beard award winner. To buy Chef Sundstrom’s  new cookbook, “Lark: Against The Grain”.

To get ready for the new fishing season.

While in Seattle, I received a message from a facebook friend. She mentioned that an instructor who works with the Sequim Fire Department, and had helped fight the truck fire, was interested in owning our truck.

We spoke with him last evening. It feels right. We will sign the title over to him. He knows how to talk Ford. It is easy to tell.  It is in the voice. In the low, throaty rumble.

His plan is to bring the truck back to life. 

Our plan, is to find a replacement truck. Another Ford F-250.

Word is out. Friends have been calling. A 1972 Ford F-250 is on Craigslist in our area, mentioned one friend. Another sent a  message about an upcoming auction.

Fishermen up and down the coast expressed sympathy.

The loss of a classic old truck is painful. Especially one wearing Grabber Blue paint.

When our old fish truck got wrecked in that fire,  new friends suddenly became old friends in the making.

“How much do you want for it?”, the firefighter instructor asked.

“Pay it forward,” the fishing couple let him know. ” We are just grateful to the Sequim Fire Department and that everyone is safe. The truck served us well and we loved having her. It is time for us to  move on. We are glad the two of you have found each other. It feels right”.

That is the way it is with classic, old trucks.

Our next fish truck may not be quite as old. In 1998, Ford F-250 trucks came with airbags. We’d like to have those.  A long bed for sure. 4 x 4 and an extended cab would be ideal.

We will miss our old blue fish truck. 

What matters most, though, is the story. The story of a family being well and gaining strength. The story of being strong enough to let go for the sake of growth. The story of friendship. The story of gratitude.

In the end, these are the things that really matter.

 

Side note.  If you would like, you can learn more about our fishing family on our business web-site for  Dungeness Seaworks: http://www.freshfrozenfish.net

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 





The Importance of Boatyards, Friends, and Pi Day (3/14/15)

14 03 2015

Pi Day of the century happens at 3:14:15 9:26:53, today, exactly as I am writing this sentence. It will happen again, this evening in the PM, and then not happen for another 100 years.

Numbers: Rational. Irrational.

Kind of like the states of mind.

Getting a fishing boat up to Port Angeles, Washington from Astoria, Oregon in January, as we did this year, produced mixed reactions for my husband and I. Irrational thinking peppered in with the, mostly, rational thought that prevailed. In retrospect, it needed to be done. We had pole work to do, a repaired generator and a new muffler to install. It is eminently easier to do boat work in a yard where the boat and owners are well-known by the trades people who work on boats. It is also nice to go home at night.

The Port Angeles boatyard has been a home to me since my parents moved our family from Westport, WA, during the Spring that I was in 1st Grade in 1971, to Port Angeles, WA. Along with the move, came our wood fishing boat, the Kipling. She would be moored in the Port Angeles boat basin until the mid-1970’s.

As I became older, I loved to ride my bike downhill toward the working waterfront from our house on 10th Street on Pine Hill to the marina, after school, so I could help out on the boat. The Kipling eventually gave way to the Kay Angela. The boat named after my mother, the Kay Angela, was a 46′ fiberglass Little Hoquiam that my parents had built in 1975. One of my jobs was to sand and varnish the ironwood caps and guards.

These days I am a mother. My kids have fished and it appears they may both continue to fish (off and on) aboard our family fishing boat, the Saint Jude. Both my kids (a daughter and a son) have helped paint the red boot stripe and blue bottom, helped with fishing gear, have sea time.

It has not been easy. Many families got out of salmon trolling. Back when my parents owned a fishing boat, Port Angeles had a fleet of over 100 trollers. That has dwindled down to little more than a handful.

Still, hanging on has been worth it! Oh my, the stories. Those glorious sea stories. That alone, the adventures of roaming the West Coast from California to Southeast Alaska, is a reflection of a life well-lived.

Plus, catching King Salmon for a living has got to be one of the greatest gifts bestowed to a born fisherman!

The Saint Jude is nearly ready for an April 1st King Salmon opener that we expect to participate in this Spring. Her skipper, my husband, will be ready. Our fishing family will be ready.

 

The Saint Jude hauled out in the Port of Port Angeles Boatyard on March, 12, 2015. My husband is in Grundens rain gear working on painting the bottom while our son, a third generation commercial fisherman, heads up the ladder.

The Saint Jude hauled out in the Port of Port Angeles Boatyard on March, 12, 2015. My husband is in Grundens rain gear working on painting the bottom while our son, a third generation commercial fisherman, heads up the ladder.

The Port of Port Angeles Boatyard and the hard-working craftsmen that work there have been good to our family over the years. We are grateful.

We are also advocates of the Port of Astoria keeping their boatyard open for boat owners of all types. A good working boatyard, anywhere on the coast, is a life-line in our business.

A petition to keep the Astoria Boatyard open can be found at Change.org Keep the Port of Astoria Boatyard Open. Here is a link where you can sign the petition and share it with others:

https://www.change.org/p/port-of-astoria-oregon-state-legislature-keep-the-port-of-astoria-boatyard-open

On this Pi Day (the one that will not happen again for another century), my husband and son are at the Port Angeles Farmer’s Market today selling some of our fish.

Direct marketing is how our fishing family has stayed afloat during some tough times throughout our commercial fishing career.

Relating with the public has become an even greater gift than catching King Salmon, and other species of fish, for a living. Connecting with people and forming warm, caring relationships within our local and broader fishing communities is reward beyond any other. Gold dust.

To celebrate Pi Day, my husband and son are planning to bring a pie home from the Port Angeles Farmer’s Market.

I expect that when they stop by the Saint Jude today, where she is still hauled out in the Port Angeles Boatyard, that they will also have a gift (perhaps pie or perhaps a piece of Alderwood smoked King Salmon) for the master welder scheduled to install our new muffler for the generator today.

The numbers a master welder works with are precise. Commercial fishing, often, is not. Along with a good boatyard, a fishing boat and her family depends on both the rational and irrational. Unmeasurable gut feelings and measurable components that keep the boat and fishing business afloat. A good fisherman is instinctive.

Finding the balance is the trick. Best done with friends and a good piece of pie!

Pi = 3.14

Pi is an irrational number.

Here is a link that further explains Pi

Did you know that the hostess of The Pi Episode is Danica McKellan that played Winnie in “The Wonder Years” television series? Did you know she has a degree in mathematics from UCLA and has written several books on mathematics?

Did you know that both men and women can be good at math and, if they choose to do so, they can also both be good at commercial fishing?

Can you describe what is so cool about 3:14:15 9:26:53?





I believe..

13 12 2014

I believe one of the greatest gifts anyone has ever given me is when a young lady told me last evening that I should write an essay on what I believe.

I believe it was another great gift when my daughter further filled me in, later last night, on how the “I believe” essays originated.

I believe my “I believe” list may be controversial for some folks that have some opposing value systems.

I believe that differences of opinion are okay.

I believe it is possible to learn to use guns safely.
I believe it essential to allow children to find interests and activities that suit their personalities.
I believe in Santa.
I believe in telling my kids that Santa is everyone that knows them and loves them.
I believe that Santa means that my children will find presents on Christmas morning that their parents could not possibly afford all on their own.

I believe that pets should be well-cared for throughout their entire natural lives, not just when they are young and playful and mostly healthy.

(I believe the same holds true for individuals and spouses in marriages).

I believe in the value of youth organizations like Girls Scouts, Boy Scouts and 4H.
I believe humans are pro-social beings and benefit from mutual collaboration.
I believe mental health issues are not meant to be hidden but should be illuminated so people with mental health issues can access appropriate treatment and live full and happy lives.

I believe everyone has something useful to contribute to society.


I believe my paternal grandfather would have been damned proud that my son shot in the black (hit a 1″ bulls eye) after firing only four rounds at 10 Meters out at his first 4H shooting group session last week.
I believe it was an honor and more than a challenge for that same grandfather to have given me his cherished pre-’64 Winchester .30-.30 when I was 12-years-old.
I believe I would have benefitted from owning an air rifle (pellet and/or BB gun) when I was a kid before being taught to shoot a deer rifle.

I believe in raising children to become individuals that can think for themselves, express themselves, own all of their feelings, and take responsibility for their actions.
I believe the above statement is true whether raising a girl or a boy.
I believe in apologizing and making things right when a mistake has been made and someone has been hurt.
I believe making mistakes is part of being human and that in order to grow, mistakes will and need to be made.

I believe that those close to our family admire my daughter for her persistency and courage.

I believe hard work should be followed by rest and relaxation. In that order.

I believe no one should own a gun until they are ready to learn how to use it responsibly.
I believe my son is ready to own a gun.
I believe that my son would have eventually owned the .30 -.30 Winchester that my grandfather gave me if it had not burned in a tent fire in the Blue Mountains and the remnants put in a tree at the Water Hole hunt on the Wenatchee side.
I believe my son will find a present under the tree this year that is in the shape of a rectangular box but that there will not be a .30 -.30 rifle in it.
I believe my son is currently too young for a .30 -.30 (he is about a year younger than I was when I owned one).
I believe that a Daisy Avanti Champion 499 BB gun will suit my son just right because he can use it safely in our back yard and that both my husband and I can help to teach our boy how to take care of it, to shoot it safely, and how to be responsible with his firearm. I believe there are some people, maybe even some of those from my family of orgin, that will wan t to know what this gun model is…so:

 

http://www.daisy.com/node/106

I believe that Daisy is on the right track when they offer a steep discount (only on the phone when asked directly) on the BB gun we just ordered to parents who have their child involved in a formal shooting program. (None of which disputes the theory that Santa does exist, sometimes for parents too!).

I believe that my dad taught me to fish and shoot well. 

I believe my dad may also have been on to something when he said that kids that grow up just to shoot targets do not necessarily make good hunters as they are not experienced with the natural environment where things can change quickly and game is often moving. I am still thinking on this but know I am on the right track with my son owning a gun that will become an extension of himself. One he can practice with every day as he chooses. Doesn’t hurt, either, that the Daisy Avanti Champion 499 is a lever action just like my old .30 – .30. It has a peep sight and all. Doesn’t hurt, either, that the air rifle my son shot into the black is one of the most accurate pellet rifles in the world. When I saw the pattern our boy shot, I knew it was with a Daisy Avanti. Turns out it was a Daisy 853. So… a used Daisy 853 – has also been ordered and is being shipped to our house. That gun will belong to our boy one day but for just a little while – til he is a bit older – my husband and I better hang onto it for him – except when he is practicing with it – I need to get some target practice in with it too…remind myself how to breathe through the shot. Remind myself of who I am. At one time, I was a dead eye shooter. And that was a long, long time ago.

I believe in the merits of learning good breath control whether on a yoga mat, on a gun range, or in the natural environment preparing to squeeze the trigger to make a clean kill.

I believe that healthy family values and long-standing traditions are important.
I believe that if my son shows interest, that I can teach him to hunt.
I believe that it is morally and ethically correct to reject values that are not healthy and do not contribute to society.
I believe that guns and booze do not mix.
I believe it is possible for people to change for the better.
I believe my husband is an exceptionally gifted commercial fisherman and that he is even better with me by his side.

I believe fishing and hunting goes hand in hand with conservation and stewardship of our land and oceans.

I believe in art, theater, music, singing, flowers on the table, lit candles on the mantle, church choirs, that the “Hallelujah Chorus” from Handel’s Messiah is one of the most beautiful pieces of music ever written, and that it is beautiful to honor the Judeo-Christian tradition of worshipping a newborn baby in a manger.

I believe life is about finding a healthy balance.

I believe that the universe (God) is looking out for me and my family.

I believe in love.
I believe in forgiveness.
I believe in patience.
I believe in hope.

I believe that of all of my beliefs that hope is the most important one.

I believe that every day is a gift and that it is my responsibility to live life well and to continue to grow in wisdom.

I believe I am embracing the more positive of the values that my parents taught me and if I were either of them, I’d be proud of me. (I also know that when my mother clicks on the link below that she will not be able to resist singing along).

I believe that the “Hallelujah Chorus” may represent how our son will feel when he opens a certain rectangular shaped package on Christmas Eve this year of 2014. The gift with the tag that will read, “Love, Mom and Dad”. The one that is the next step of him becoming a man and carrying on rich family traditions in a healthy way.

I believe that when I hear the “Hallelujah Chorus” that, even in my mind, I can hear my daughter’s beautiful voice singing loud and clear in all the choruses I have witnessed her being a part of over the years. Such a gift!  This Christmas season she is an adult and having her in our presence is a present I will always treasure!

I believe that we all have gifts and talents. What are yours?





Heron Medicine (Be Safe Out There)

7 09 2014

The fisherman had been home. For a few days. It was blowing off-shore and he’d driven a rental truck full of blast-frozen albacore up the coast. With his deckhand and the aging chocolate lab that the kids missed fiercely.

He’d been up since 3 AM that morning. Waiting to get in across the Columbia River Bar. They didn’t call it the Graveyard of the Pacific for nothing.

The drive went well and he got home in time to see all of his family. Mostly. The boy was in bed. It had been his first day of school.

The fisherman’s wife wanted to talk. A lot. He had come to understand that this was because he was gone. A lot. Commercial fishing is isolating. Not only for the fishermen but also for the wives at home. Sometimes for the kids.

The fisherman finally told his wife how many hours he had been awake that day. She chastised him lightly, telling him he should have mentioned it earlier. Truth be told, he was enjoying the company too.

Neither the fisherman nor his wife needed an alarm to get up the next morning to see the kids off to school. They drove their son to his grade school, stopping by a coffee stand on the way back home. They both took to drinking instant coffee during the fishing season. It was cheap, fast, and easy to make. At home, there were a few granules at the bottom of the jar. Slightly stuck to the bottom. An emergency stash.

They savored the steaming joe. His paper cup had a lot more sweet stuff in it. She still liked to drink hers hard core black with extra shots. To celebrate the occassion, of her husband being home, she had asked for a bit of cream.

It took awhile for his wife to fully wake up. He already wanted to be off returning the rental truck. She kept talking about guitar lessons, and all sorts of meandering subjects. He had learned to sit tight. Mostly. At home, she was the skipper. That was their agreement. He had learned that when he tried to take over the controls, that all hell broke loose, eventually.

It still baffled him.

How he could be so proficient at catching fish and keeping a boat running for days on end, but mess up getting groceries in the house and feeding two kids, while trying to keep track of family appointments. Turned out, after years of trying, that he did not have to do all that. He just had to pay attention to his wife’s schedule.

It kept the ship running smoothly.

Sure enough, that afternoon he assessed the day, and was amazed at how smoothly it went and how much had been done. He had enjoyed a cold can of soda while his wife had another coffee during their son’s guitar lesson. He got a kick out of the music store owner sharing aviation art. After the lesson, they drove back to the house and it lit his son up to no end to go with him when he returned the rental truck. His wife had followed them driving the ’72 Grabber Blue Ford F-250 pick-up they owned. They planned a run to the local garbage dump.

The fisherman had the unenviable task of cleaning out the bucket of dog crap that had accumulated for the past few months. He had to take the two yellow kayaks out of the back of the Ford pick-up truck to lower the tailgate just to get that bucket into the bed of the truck. He could understand why his wife had asked for his help. That sucker was heavy, maybe 60 lbs he told her.

He understood, less, why she kept mentioning all the way to the dump that she was anxious that they would be late. He hardly ever looked at a clock or watch. Didn’t need to, much, on a fishing boat.

As it turned out, the gate to the dump was still open. His wife looked frazzled. It was exactly 5 PM, according to the attendant, when the fisherman upended the steel bucket of plastic bagged dog crap into the dumpster. Closing time.

That evening was one they would remember the rest of their lives. They had done a lot of chores throughout the day, everything on his wife’s list was crossed off by the time the work was done.

The Seahawks were playing their first  league game than night. The fisherman had been looking forward to it. So he, his wife, and son walked up to the neighborhood bar and grill. They waved to another family that his wife  knew as they walked to their booth then ordered a plate of appetizers. He and his wife split a burger.

The Seahawks won the game!

The walk back home was about a mile or so in length, gently downhill. They peeked into the auto shop window at the top of the hill and spied several classic vehicles. The street lamps, the professionally landscaped newer neighborhood with the manicured lawn next to the sidewalk and the big box store were all such a contrast to the coldness of the diamond-plated aluminum deck of their fishing boat.

They especially appreciated the bit of the walk on the Olympic Discovery trail which led nearly up to their home. That stretch of the trail went by the opposite side of the road from the old red barn and the Raptor Center.

Their son grabbed both of their hands and tried to swing his feet as he had once when he was a little boy. They all three laughed because he was too tall to do it well anymore.

The boy was late getting to be that evening. It didn’t matter. His #3 Russell Wilson Seahawks jersey had kept him warm on the walk home. The fisherman had given his wife a larger version of the same jersey for Christmas earlier that year. Before the team had won the Superbowl. She was wearing her jersey, too, much to the fisherman’s delight.

Their daughter was home when they all got back to the house. She had been away in the neighboring town working toward landing her first job. The fisherman was tired but he stayed up later than his body was absolutely willing to listen to her stories. It was very late by the time he and his wife got to bed.

The fisherman was planning on leaving for the boat the next day, anticipating driving the ’72 Ford pick-up. He wanted to hang out with his son and daughter more. His wife kept talking about yard work and garage cleaning and…. It became a hum in his head.

He liked taking albacore with his wife to the Raptor Center earlier that afternoon. Turns out the person that had bought the albacore and ran the place understood commercial fishing. Perfectly. She been out on fishing boats  herself. Her father had welded on the boat lift out at the old Peters Neah Bay Resort back when folks came from all over the country to catch King Salmon there.

She knew the three  fishermen that had gone down on a crab boat off of Cape Flattery years ago. She knew one of them very well. Knew the family. In the same way, closer actually, than the fisherman and his wife did. She told her story to the fisherman and his wife. About the day that boat went down. All three knew, they would be bonded for life over the events she conveyed. That is how it is in the commercial fishing fleet.

The Great Blue Heron recovering at the Raptor Center wanted to get out. He was ready to go. Agitated. He could hardly wait to get back fishing. The fisherman and his wife admired his long neck, his piercing yellow eyes and his long sharp beak. Most of all, they admired his spirit. The fisherman  remembered when a Great Blue Heron nearly brushed his wife’s  shoulder when he flew over  her the day they took both their kids to visit the old Peters Neah Bay Resort.

Shy-pokes, as locals sometimes call Great Blue Herons are not known for approaching humans in any way.

Peters was the maiden name of the fisherman’s wife. Peters Neah Bay Resort is where she first learned about how to catch fish.

The fisherman and his wife  had attended the memorial service for those three men that went down on the crab boat off of Cape Flattery near Neah Bay. It was held at Fishermen’s Terminal in Seattle. Three fishermen lost. The three women partners they had left behind gave the fisherman and his wife hugs at that service. All of them said the same thing:

“Be safe out there.”

That advice had saved their lives and their boat more than once. Sometimes, when they had felt like pushing in really bad weather, they had turned around for port.

Remembering the voices of those women, remembering their tears.

The fisherman left the next evening. He had hoped to have steak with his family on the warm cedar deck on the South side of their house. The kids had a different idea though. They were hoping for a take-out treat. He and his wife relented, heading for one of the local drive-thru hamburger joints. They had their meal at a local park, where the fisherman used to take the children a lot when they were younger. To swing, to see the ducks, to hook up with other kids.

By the time he left home, it was 8 PM. He did not know that , though, as he hardly ever looked at a clock. His family watched a TV show and went to bed. He drove until he got to the marina where the boat was moored. When he arrived, close to 1:30 AM, he texted his wife:

I love you”.

She did not see it until much later that morning.

When she did see it, his words, she texted him an apology. For talking so much. They talked on the phone a bit. He needed to get groceries and fuel. She needed to shake off her sadness, get the house back in order.

The fisherman called his wife again after the boat had crossed the bar on the way back out to sea. He said the ocean was coming down nicely. He’d been fishing since early April of that season and it was now September. About two more months of the fishing season left if all went well. It was a gift, to have long seasons once again.

The fisherman’s wife had tears in her eyes when she hung up the phone. “Be safe out there”,  were her last words to him. As was the case with every phone call they ever had when he was on the ocean.

She and her husband were looking forward to her volunteering at the Raptor Center. They had made friends there.

The fisherman and his wife knew to embrace Heron medicine.





Turning 50! (Celebrate with me)

23 08 2014

50! Milestone birthday for sure.

For years, I was fishing on a boat somewhere on my birthday. I was lucky when friends planned a celebration for me.

This year, I am home. With my now adult daughter. Getting ready to switch things up a bit. It is time to get the party started!

50, baby, and I ain’t sitting on my hands this year doing nothing!

Our family fishing boat, the Saint Jude, is heading in and it looks like my husband and son will be home tomorrow too. I have not seen either of them for weeks. That is the nature of us being a commercial fishing family. They will not only be able to celebrate my 50th birthday with me tomorrow, on August 23, but my daughter’s 18th birthday too!

As a fishing family, our important events tend to get celebrated in a cluster fashion. When everyone is together.

Today, truth be told, I started off wanting to get the house cleaned up more for my husband’s arrival. Boring. Conventional. I chose to write instead. I told my husband this on the phone today and he gave his blessing. He said he’d pitch in around home when he got here. I like that. It seems to mean our marriage is in a good place. That we have both learned that there is much more to life than a perfectly clean house.

I also want to spoil myself, one last day, before my son is home to get ready for the school year. When my husband goes back fishing, when the weather settles down, I will be seasonally single-parenting once again. Granted, it is much easier now than when the kids were younger and a big outing was a trip to the grocery store to buy diapers.

These days, I have a lot more time to myself. It is a transitional time, ripe with possibility.

I want to live the rest of my life with little or no regret.

Turning 50 gives me a chance to reflect on how to go about this.

Things I regret NOT doing in my first fifty years of life:

1. Not working as a Registered Nurse for at least awhile. Why? 2 years of pre-nursing college classes and 2 years of Nursing School is a lot of time commitment to have never worked in a field. The money was good, for that stage of my life when I was in my early 20’s, and it would have built confidence. I also learned it is not good to let myself get talked out of doing something that is in my best interests. It is a trap for letting resentment build. About 11 years ago, I took a refresher course to try to renew my license. The field had changed so much, by then, that I could not do this. So I will remain mandatorily retired from professional nursing and lose the resentment.

2. Not paying automobile insurance for 6 months while commercial fishing when first married. Why? Insurance companies frown on this even when a car is not being used and it is tricky getting reinsured.

3. Not hiring a housekeeper more when the kids were younger? Why? I would have had more quality time to do more with the children when they were younger and have been way less tired. The quality of our life would have been better and we would have had more people over to the house. I could also have used other skills I possess for doing things that would have had a more positive impact in my life and that of others. Like writing.

Things I don’t regret:

1. Supporting my husband with his passion of commercial salmon trolling. Why? It makes him happy.

2. Having a family home built before the kids were born. 27 years ago. Why? At one time the 2,500 sq. feet and over an acre of property seemed too small. We have used every inch of space in the house. We have had lovely celebrations. Even through tough times during the recession, while dealing with some expensive medical issues when salmon seasons were drastically cut back for 5 years in WA, CA, and ORE, the house provided sanctuary. I was 22-years-old when we had our home built. It is fun to share.

3. Owning the Saint Jude with my husband. Why? Taking a baby fishing on a commercial fishing boat for 5-6 months is challenging. The Saint Jude has seen us through some tough weather and tough times. She is all aluminum and easy to maintain. She is also lot of fun and I can tell our son enjoys her a lot.

4. Having pets. Why? They keep me humble. We will also remember them long after the objects we own, including our boat and home, become no longer useful to us.

5. Having kids. Why? They keep me humble. They also, just by their very existence, force me to grow. To live better, learn more, be more. I want for them to be happy.

6. Raising kids in Sequim, WA. Why? We are rural and there is an abundant amount of natural beauty here. A lot of people at the stores and other places know my kids, remember them when they were in preschool, ask me how Al is doing when he is away fishing. Folks trade us for fish sometimes. This is how we get our Christmas tree, some professional services, sometimes other food for our table. There is a lot of heart in our small community and it is close to my hometown, Port Angeles.

7. Getting help when needed. Why?  I have been fortunate to find out fairly early in  life that is important to not get run down too far. Not good for self to do that, not good for family. Self-care is important.

8. Listening to others. Why? My current world is fairly small. I still stay at home a lot with the kids especially when Al is away fishing. This is changing once again as they are growing older and getting more independent. I want to broaden my world view through more travel, reading, education, physical activity, socializing.

We are all different. Some things we all have in common. I like getting to know people and trying to find the common ground.

To get started, on my Facebook page today, I asked folks to share the title of a favorite book they have read, and/or favorite place they have traveled, and/or their favorite swimming pool or ocean they have swam in, and/or the most radically silly thing they have ever done.

Here is what I have to share with you so far:

My favorite book: Trinity by Leon Uris

Best place I’ve visited: Alaska and traveling by boat up and down the Inside Passage

Best Swim: Lituya Bay, Alaska

Most radically silly thing I’ve done: Swam in Lituya Bay, Alaska – more than once on different days – it’s really cold!

What is your favorite book? Most awesome place you have ever visited? The favorite pool or ocean in which you have ever swam?

What is the most radically silly thing you have ever done?

Are you living the life you want to be living? I’d love to hear!